“In this life, it doesn’t matter where you are, but in what direction you are moving.” I’ve always loved that quote. The problem is... right now I don’t know which direction to go. I got laid off from my job this week. It was a job that I loved. I got to play with dogs everyday. I managed a dog grooming shop and it was a great shop with great clients and beautiful dogs. But the economy has taken it’s tole on the business and my dear sweet wonderful (ex) boss had to lay me off and start working in the shop herself. Now, instead of being employer and employee we can just be friends. But I find myself mourning the loss of this job more than I thought I would. I wake up every morning and realize I won’t be going in to the shop. Now if I was able to take an early retirement and just spend everyday creating in my studio, keeping a beautiful home, playing with my dogs and maybe take some classes... then I would be in heaven. But I have to find another job. And I’m scared to death. The thought of going to work everyday to a job I don’t like makes me sick to my stomach. My husband hates his job and I see how it affects him. The careers that I would be good at are the types of things that have really been affected by the times. I’ve never had to go out searching for a job. They have always just come at the right time. (I suppose I have been lucky so far.) I believe I will be okay. I really do. I’m just feeling a little overwhelmed because I truly have no idea what I want to do now. What path should I take? Which direction should I go? I just don’t know. Fear of the unknown can be pretty debilitating sometimes.
Thank you all for letting me vent my feelings. This is the first time I let the tears really fall and I feel better because of it. Next week I must start my job search. Maybe I’ll be lucky and find someone who is looking for an artist/interior designer/dog lover/control freak/perfectionist!!! Hey, it could happen!!!